I had a realisation recently.
Whilst speaking to my coach and mentor I had an ‘aha’ moment. I was getting caught up in the pressure of work. However who is putting the pressure on me?
Me.
My thinking.
I realised when I was younger my thinking that kept me under pressure back then in order to meet expectations of parents, teachers etc. served me well then but I don’t need it now. So why is it continuing?
Habit. Habitual thinking.
My thinking tells me a story that I am under pressure.
This is my story: That if I don’t get X, Y, Z done yesterday I will miss out on opportunities A, B & C which means I will be homeless and destitute, living on the streets (OK, my thinking isn’t taking it that far but you get the drift!).
Nothing new, I ‘knew this’ for some time. I knew it intellectually but it hadn’t sunk in to somewhere deeper, my subconscious. Insights and ‘aha’ moments are when something bypasses the intellectual part of the brain to somewhere deeper. That brings change.
Pressure created by my thinking.
Not by deadlines, by my thinking about them. The stories I was telling myself about what will/won’t happen if I miss/change them.
We innocently get caught up in our thinking, out of habit.
On our fertility journey it was: ‘I don’t get the good things other people have in their life’.
Thought is not truth, it is an illusion of truth.
Thought take you away from being in the here and now, connecting with your innate wellbeing and peace of mind.
What’s your story?
How would you be without it?
With love
